My partner - I had to tell him to go. He was upset that I wasn't jealously looking after him - he thought I didn't love him, that I must be mean. I was astounded. I thought, I said "If you want to love me, you do, if you want to lie to me you will. I trust you, we are together. It's up to you - tell me if you don't want to be together." He got a plane ticket to go back to OH. I said rip it up or go now. I'm here are you. That reinforced that I was mean. ...What, He left. It was the hardest thing I have ever done, but I am not a masochist. I will not fulfill someone's need to be followed and be in fear of if they love me or not. ridiculous.
My partner - I had to tell him to go. He was upset that I wasn't jealously looking after him - he thought I didn't love him, that I must be mean. I was astounded. I thought, I said "If you want to love me, you do, if you want to lie to me you will. I trust you, we are together. It's up to you - tell me if you don't want to be together." He got a plane ticket to go back to OH. I said rip it up or go now. I'm here are you. That reinforced that I was mean. ...What, He left. It was the hardest thing I have ever done, but I am not a masochist. I will not fulfill someone's need to be followed and be in fear of if they love me or not. ridiculous.
I guess this is the other side of the coin - what I went through